All of my good dreams involve whales. If whales are not in my dream then I’m chased by a murderer, my husband cheats on me, or I’ve misplaced my kid. I have a lot of bad anxiety dreams, but some nights my subconscious throws me a bone, and I dream peacefully of whales.
I’m normally in a house, or standing on a pier and I can see whales in the distance. Sometimes I’m on a boat and I see them close by. When I finally see the whales, my heart fills with joy and child-like wonder. After a few moments of whale watching, peace settles over me.
I spoke of the recurring image of whales to a friend of mine when we were in college. He coincidentally was studying psychology. He was interested in my nocturnal whale watching and asked a few basic questions:
Q: Have you ever seen whales?
A: Yes I have seen whales.
Q: Where did you see whales?
- On my dad’s boat.
- From the shore of a cabin we visited regularly when I was a child.
- In captivity, we saw Shamu at Sea World.
- Once again, in captivity, we visited Keiko when he was in a tank in Oregon.
Q: Who was with you when you saw the whales?
A: Always family.
Q: When was the last time you saw whales?
A: Keiko in Oregon.
Q: What were you doing there?
A: Vacationing with my family. It was the last vacation we ever took as a family before my parent’s divorce. (Oh!)
I went through a lot of change in a short period of time. My parents divorced, and then remarried new spouses, I acquired step-siblings, and then my brother left and joined the Coast Guard which really split my world in half. For years I felt like I was fighting a losing battle of trying to hold my family together. I wept and I mourned for my former family life. I love my step-relatives now, but it took awhile for all of us to adjust. I think the whales represent the very first family dynamic I had until I was thirteen years old. Just my father, mother, brother, and me.
Do you have recurring themes/images/people in your dreams? Do you believe they appear for a reason?
Sweet dreams, tonight and always,
ADDITIONAL NOTE: I must add that I don’t believe in the captivity of whales. There is too much evidence that shows these beautiful, majestic souls suffer when they are confined.